Quiet

The house is unpacked.  Nick is training in Washington.  Tanner is sleeping.  It's quiet.  But yet, I can't really relax.  My mind is ready to go rock Tanner back to sleep even though he isn't awake.  I'm just waiting for him to make a peep.  I wish I could take a nice warm bath, but I still wouldn't be able to relax, and that's when Tanner would wake up.  For sure.  Maybe another day.


My mom is coming to Oklahoma on Wednesday and I am so excited to see her!  It's been 5 months since she has seen Tanner.  And I can't wait to go get coffee with her, go shopping, and out to breakfast/lunch.  I can't wait for her to see Tanner.  

We're back!

We are home!  Finally after 3 months, 4 for Nick, we are back home in Oklahoma.  We made the normally 9 hour drive in 11 hours on Friday.  Tanner was not a happy camper. 

He did take a few mini cat naps, but when we were stuck in Dallas rush hour traffic, he was SO mad.  He threw out both pacifiers. And cried, and cried. But once we made it into Oklahoma and out of the traffic, I fed him and got him ready for bed(it was around 7:30, his normal bedtime).  He slept the next 3 hours until we got home.  

When we came into the house, the thermostat was set to 88 degrees (thanks, housing...). The house smelt funny, still does, and I had to get the vacuum out to get all the spiders out of our room so we could go to bed and get ready to unpack the next day.  

The house is slowly coming together, and boxes are slowly starting to disappear.  It is so hard to unpack, clean, or do pretty much anything when you have a 7 month old baby demanding attention and having nap strikes.  But we're working on it.  My mom is coming out to visit in a week and I'm looking forward to having her help decorate the place.  She has great taste in interior decorating!

I will post pictures once everything has a place and we are settled!

Randolph Planes Photo Dump

We are nearing our last days here at Randolph AFB.  If Nick is able to get his last check ride in today we will leave to go home to Oklahoma tomorrow night!  But...we have thunderstorms all day today.  And tomorrow, and the rest of the week.  I'm hoping there is a break in the rain long enough for Nick to fly that last 3 hour flight.  


We have some static planes back at Vance, but Tanner was still a little too young to enjoy it.  So we took him out to the static planes here for a quick photo shoot before we leave.  I am still trying to figure out this camera.  But being stuck in a hotel room with only a bed is keeping me busy (trying to keep Tanner from rolling off the bed onto the hard floor).  We also have one tiny window, so there is hardly any natural light.  


It will be so nice to get back to our house with carpet. And windows.  And my kitchen! 

Nick tried to get Tanner to hold onto the propeller, but he wasn't having any of that!

And this is Tanner's FAVORITE thing to do.  If he doesn't want to sit down, he will not do it.

"I want that green stuff!"   

Getting mad at dad.

He has his momma's stubborn side.

"Food?"

I love this!

He inherited talking with his hands from his daddy.

"Ooooo!"

We've been trying to teach him how to wave.  Lately he smiles when I wave at him, so I was waving while taking these pictures, trying to get that smile.  I don't know if this is coincidence or not, but I love it.

We had to take a picture in front of the Cessna for Grandpa!

:)

Happy 7 Months, Sweet Boy!

I love you more and more each day.  

Crushed

I can't get this out of my mind.  


I am so incredibly blessed, humbled, and thankful to have Tanner in my life.  I can honestly say he is the best thing I've ever done, and I am such a better person because of him.  As I type this, I hear him squirming in his sleep next to me, and my heart wants to explode from all the love I have for this little guy.  And at the same time, I feel crushed.


I'm crushed because a baby was taken from this world too soon.  I'm crushed because a friend is going to have to bury her son.  I'm crushed from the thoughts that run through my head...how is she doing, is she going to be OK...


I can't even begin to imagine the pain she and her husband are feeling.  It's not fair.  They did absolutely nothing wrong.  She is such a beautiful person, inside and out.  This stuff doesn't happen to people I know.  But it does.


It did.


My heart aches for her every day.  


Please, secure your load on your car. Be careful when you drive. Pay attention.  There could be a car slowing down to avoid a cooler on the highway with a sleeping infant in the backseat. 

I feel so lucky to be a part of a fantastic group of women (all moms to babies Tanner's age).  There was a memorial fund immediately started for Milo's family.  The word was spread, and a lot of money was raised (still being raised).  There was also a beautiful memorial page started on facebook.  


I hope they know we are here for them.  We pray for them all day.  


I still can't believe this happened, though.  It's a true nightmare.  You may not know them, but if you can spare a thought, or a prayer, please do. 


We love you and your family very much, Milo.  

Finally!

We have a tooth! After weeks and weeks of teething pain and an extremely grumpy baby the sharp little bugger finally broke through!

I've tried and tried to take a picture of it but Tanner will not open his mouth long enough. He barely lets me feel his gums.